I am feeling scared. Besides right now finally now feeling connected with one human being I have to deal with my out of control sending. For months now I have been buying whatever I want which isn't expensive but which adds up.
As of yesterday I forced myself to stop. I don't know why I did it and I really like what I bought but the way I was going I will run out of money. I don't know if I have been in one major depression. Now the stock market is either correcting or in a bear market. It was awful when I didn't feel connected with no one not even God. I still don't feel connected with God