For so many in my family
The phone just won’t stop
And yet in my own life not a concern
All I am asked is please don’t leave us
Please your all we have
I think to myself
Heavenly Father You are all I have
I make that choice to get up and out if be in the early more hours to get this child all ready for her day
No help
And a tease with a possible interest quickly fizzled
I’m so okay with it
And find it easy to let go as so many more important things come before me
And when will my family see and understand how they are priority
I will never give up on them
To hear from my boy who is also in a very very bad place
All I have to say to him as I do to my sister who is in the same place as my so
It is a choice to not pick up
It’s all one moment at a time
To keep it simple
To put it off for another time
I don’t want to hear
I’m not as strong as you are
I don’t have will power
It’s all about choice
Making the choice not now not today
It is very difficult
If anybody knows this momma does
A choice
So sad
Just so sad to see it take life from them as it strips me as I won’t turn my back on them
Me