I try to avoid commercial tv as much as possible for the same reason. In truth...I generally don't watch much tv at all these days except when I am feeling too crummy to do anything else...and even then I have a tendency to just flip on one of the music channels to the Singers and Swing station to help me chill. If watching a tv show or movie I try to do pretty much anything without commercials...but right now with the flare i can't concentrate on anything. I turned on a movie and I think I "watched it" for 30 minutes and then realized I hadn't really seen or processed anything.

Friday I just laid in bed with the lights off and my headphones in listening to an audiobook and while I had to basically rewind everything I listened to because I wasn't really hearing it, it was calming to have the noise and help drown out all the stressful thoughts.

Of course this weekend my husband and daughter have been home with me and I haven't been able to rest so the flare continues. I have not slept at all the last two days and I am feeling so drained both physically and emotionally. Hoping I can get some much needed sleep tonight and focus on some self care the next few days to try and break this cycle. I have a doctor's appointment Tuesday morning to talk to the dr about what my options are for these stupid kidney stones (apparently there are several) that I haven't been able to pass but have been bothering me for what will be 6 weeks on Wednesday since the first symptoms started.