I think the depression is from your BP, too. It is so hard to treat, especially since your pdoc feels like his hands are tied because of your past stroke

I beat myself up so badly. I think it's mostly from my upbringing. Both my parents were alcoholics, my family was so f***ing dysfunctional, and my mother's standards were impossibly high. I think maybe I just can't let go of anything because of the BP tho.

Have you ever thought about selling things on eBay vs. throwing them out or giving them away? You must have a ton of shoes. And I know you always buy nice ones. Maybe Robert could help set you up?

I'm sorry that everything is making you feel worse vs. better right now- except for the kitties. They can be so comforting. I'm glad that they are good company right now. I hope that Cecilia will bring Prince over soon

I hope today is a better day, and something good happens for a change (((HUGS)))