Never in my wildest imagination would I have believed all that is forgotten
Not to mention that the decision I have made were always about the welfare of the children I have been left to care for
Now I have a grandchild I cannot walk away from
Yesterday’s enlightenment was disturbing to say the least
I wanted to leave
Take nothing but my clothes and important papers
Never to return
But I couldn’t
I can’t walk away from my granddaughter
I am her everything
It is my children I want to walk away from
Never to return
To have done all I could just wasn’t enough
The threats and lies shocked to make the decision to leave
Walk away from them
I so wanted to
And I just couldn’t abandon my granddaughter
She isn’t old enough yet
I know who I am
And know where I want be
Having to ask Heavenly Father to carry me through this most difficult time ever
I don’t want to get specific
But it was enough to say enough
I have reached my threshold with my family
I have no regrets no desire to want to be in my children’s lives
It isn’t worth the pain and price of all the pain they inflict
So I will do my very best to concentrate on my body so I can raise my granddaughter and hope she can get it
Time is never going to stop
And I await my time to go home
Until then I am not doing anything anymore it’s not worth the pain

Me