Sorry to hear you are in a similar place. I genuinely hope you continue to heal and can enjoy teaching again.

I think I’m ready to let go. I went back to my school last week and although there’s still great friends of mine working there...I am nobody. Yes, I’m Mom, wife, daughter, sister, all those rolls. But what I’d made for me, that’s gone.

I love to go there and then hate myself afterwards because I’m no longer that person. In my field, I am nobody.

I’m done working on getting back there. I need to be at peace with myself. At 5 years nearly 4 months and I am no closer to acceptance. If, someday I should wake up and be healed, then fantastic. I just can’t live on the edge of my seat anymore waiting for my miracle.

How I’ll achieve acceptance, peace and a new found love for myself I’m not sure. But, I’ve turned a corner during this last month. I don’t want to just wear a smile, I want feel the joy that goes with the smile.

QUOTE=BlueSkye1962;1261358]I'm right there with you.

My car accident was last September - a drug dealer was being chased by the police no less BUT I did my civic duty and they at least caught the guy! Though he was probably home out on bail before I was home from the hospital

I too lost my 35+ year teaching career. I miss the little ones terribly! I had just finished my PHD a couple of years ago, so sadly I had not put it to complete use.

My symptoms are pretty much in line with yours as well. It don't dirve and also walk off and leave the stove on.

I just had a neuropsych evaluation a week ago so it'll be interesting to see what it says.[/QUOTE]