Thank you sweet Alffe....I know it's a rocky path...I'm trying to remember to breathe, that emotions are like storms that pass through your heart...the pain of it can be physical. I do have a lot of support from the people I work with and Richie's family. I haven't said anything to anyone about the suicide note. I just can't do that to them. He has three children and I will not ruin their lives with it. I'm still waiting for the "cause of death," which I believe will be accidental overdose. And I may never KNOW the truth of it. I love you Alffe....you've always been my light in the darkest of my nights....