One if my first cousins died on Monday morning. I've also been thinking about my Mother, Dad, and sister who have died. My best life long friend died. I feel alone, and isolated. I feel depressed about my future, and dialysis in the future. I don't understand the kidney support group. They have not done a thing for me, but reject me from a kidney transplant because I don't have a care giver. I feel that they are a cold hearted group of people. I'm growing older alone. I didn't think that my whole life wound have anxiety, and fear issues. I'm worried about my future housing. I'm taking things one day at a time. I'm praying, and reading bible verses, and etc. BF