Hammet89
Sounds like your having a torrid time

but remember one thing , you are blessed because you can return home to parents who love you, understand you and care for you.
And when life deals you devasting blows who better to have your back...
It may not be ideal, and yes you feel Loss
But stay strong look up.....and learn a new YOU
It may take months,years, but we start with the first DAY of our excepting of a new difference, it’s just our chance to become another person, and in a better way.
Don’t grieve to much on what’s lost, embrace what could be new and make you whole in a new way.
Take everyday as it comes Chris , baby steps everyday...keep putting one foot in front of the other.....and take care of YOU
David