Welcome sckid


Bizi is right. BP2 patients usually do not have hallucinations or paranoid delusions, and they certainly don't experience dysphoric MANIA (which would usually trigger a BPI diagnosis unless it was triggered by a medication).
You should seek a second opinion.
I was misdiagnosed as BP2 for
MANY years. I wish I could have that time back. I wonder what my life would be like now had I gotten proper diagnosis and treatment earlier. I wasn't properly diagnosed until after a s/s attempt 3 years ago at the age of 34.
Psycho-motor agitation is often seen as a side effect of meds. But what you describe as a "feeling of inner tension" is usually associated with dysphoric/mixed episodes. I can really sympathize with you, having been through many of those myself. I am a smoker and double, triple how many butts I smoke during those times, too. It helps to do something.
Those episodes need to be medicated (some pdocs use Zyprexa) cuz they can be dangerous, and they are
unbelievably uncomfortable. I would make an appointment with your provider. And look for a new one to see soon.
In a pinch, I have used Benadryl to calm down a little, but taking it is not a long term solution. I also have found that showers help me a lot. When things get really bad, I will take 3 or 4 showers a day.
I hope that you can convince your provider to take a second look at your diagnosis, or at least prescribe something to make you more comfortable. You should not have to suffer like this


Please tell a family member/trusted friend and/or get yourself to the ER if you start having serious s/s thoughts


Kay