Thanks much Mark.

- Regarding insurance: My employer does this in-house. Either way, they will want to evaluate me yearly by sending me to one of their doctors. Thus the worry, because it is easy not to believe me, since even my own doctors are showing skepticism. So I am very worried to be kicked out of the disability retirement plan by suspicious doctors. I have seen many doctors who were skeptic.

- Regarding 5-htp I will look into it, thanks much for letting me know.

I am hitting rock bottom psychologically, so thanks for the support.