By 4:30pm yesterday I hadn't heard from the gastro's office, so I decided to call the office manager. She was very apologetic, and said that she would get to the bottom of things, and I would at least hear back from her tomorrow to let me know what the hold up was...
The NP called me last night at 6. She didn't even know I had had the test done, so it wasn't her or her medical assistant's fault I didn't get the results. She said she had a hard time finding the report because nobody scanned it into my chart...

Anyway, things are much worse than I expected. I do have a sigmoidocele (hernia or prolapse of my sigmoid colon, not sure which), a rectocele (thinning of the wall between my rectum and vagina), and rectal intussusception (my rectum is folding over itself but not protruding outside the body).
I will need these things surgically repaired, which is what I will do, but she said that the local surgeons have rejected much less complicated cases than mine, and it really is best to have the surgery done in Boston. Even tho I hate the idea of that, she is right.

But, right now I'm in no shape for surgery, and...
I also got the results of my halter monitor study yesterday, and they were "normal." So, I have no clue why I'm feeling so shitty all the time, and neither does my PCP or the NP. I told the RN I spoke to about the symptoms I'm having and she said I shouldn't be driving, and I should go to the ER. I said there was no point because I would sit there for hours, and they would just give me a bag of IV fluids and send me home. She said she would try to squeeze me in for an appointment with my PCP, but I never heard back from her...
This has been going on for WEEKS now and now I see no light at the end of the tunnel. They have to do something to try to figure this out because I just can't live like this. I will call today to get an appointment with the NP. I'll probably have to wait another week...

My anxiety is through the friggen roof. I hope that my mood doesn't start to shift. This is definitely enough to do it