Originally Posted by Payton

yeah your language ability is very good though hope you get things sorted out. at least you can conversate or feel certain things. you say you have a job and can do certain things you arent in a pathetic state imo. i wish i could do that. do you ever lose time? or in your memory and end up somewhere and have no clue how you got there ? just curious. marijuana can be positive for some or devastating and life ruining for some like me and cause a brain chemistry change. im 23 and my ability to articulate or put words together is so screwed up that I gave up a long time ago. when i was a child my ability to talk and articulate was superior to now as a man. its like a child now. even this message took a long time to put together, its why i can post online u can take as long as u want. I just try and accept not being able talk how I want inside. I am mute most of the time except around very close family members who are used to me talking. Many people who come across me think im deluded, psychotic , impaired, drugged or just extremely stupid and they will just end talking to me but i refrain before anyone does this (many people dont have empathy and will be judgmental) but they dont understand the neurological and cognitive damage I have had in my life that has raped the quality of my life but even though my life has been so destroyed I still try and hold on I think because naturally even though too late I know how great things would have been without my condition coming on me as a child and also in early teens. I cant imagine how my body would be and my mind,, relationships,, experiences,, feeling,, family,, my life,, dreams,, ability,, memory,, and so many deeper things i cant explain that have been lost with the damage

but sorry for all this mess in your thread i just went off track like usual. i post on this forum sometimes randomly as a way to cope. good luck to you OP