I had the most incredible afternoon! I no longer see my therapist on friday afternoon. The young rabbi called and asked if I were free. I said yes. He freed me from guilt. I always felt badly that I couldn't follow the commandment of honoring my mother and father and always felt I was sinning. He showed me something from Maimonides Mishneh Torah,Rebels 6::10
A person whose father or mother loses control of their mental faculties should try to conduct the relationship to them according to their mental condition until God has mercy upon them. If it is impossible to remain with them because they have become very deranged, one should leave them,depart, and charge others with caring for them in an appropriate manner.

my parents treated me pretty badly