head trauma in 2016-2017, significant impacts: initial concussion from hit to head in hockey, broken nose, hard elbow to face/jaw, falling head first into boards, full force slap to top of head, elbow to side of head, basketball dunk on head ×2, shoulder to jaw ×2

That is the list of the most significant head impacts i suffered JUST in 2016-2017. I also lived a very crazy lifestyle all year and only really took time off after the initial diagnosed concussion.

Not to mention, i suffered many many other impacts throughout my life from accidents, fighting, sports, dangerous/crazy activities, etc. Also all the stuff i worry about and have made posts about in the past, the 'every day impacts' type of stuff.

I suffer from pretty extreme anxiety and mental illness so all this is something that really weighs me down and that i spend much time ruminating over given that it always lingers in the back of my head. I want nothing more then to stop worrying, move on with my life, live a normal, happy, active life, etc but it feels like that may not be possible with all we know about brain damage, cte and all that fun stuff. The uncertainty on how much brain trauma ive truly suffered is really what kills me.

Anyone have any advice or in a similar boat?