Thank you for the hugs

Believe it or not, I don't eat cheese at all
The pork chops only cost between $2-3, so I decided it wasn't worth the effort of trying to save them, only to have them turn out hard and dry in the end. They were just too thin to do anything with.

When Corey came home to bring in the groceries, he also brought in a 30pk of beer. I told him to put it in the fridge first, so I could work around it when I put the rest of the groceries away. He had a temper tantrum because things weren't going as smoothly as he wanted them to, and when I told him to calm down, he snapped at me, and told me that he had the right to react the way he wanted to. I told him that I wasn't going to put up with any of his s- after his behavior the night before. That shut him up.

He's aware of the stress that I'm under, but he's not cutting me any slack.
I don't really talk about my mental health issues with him, except to let him know something is going on. I'll let him know that I need/needed a med adjustment, or maybe say I'm "off", or something to that effect, but usually that's all. But if his behavior (usually his temper) is really impacting me in a negative way, I will tell him that it's really important that he not do this or that, and he will usually try not to do whatever it is.

I took the extra 100mg of gabapentin for the first time last night. I thought it would be hard to wake up this morning, and I would feel really sedated, but nope. I woke up at 5am after only 5 1/2hrs sleep (unusual for me). I'm tired, but I didn't get enough sleep, so I can't say how sedating it was, but I think it was activating. I'm higher and less dysphoric. I will give it another shot tonight and see what happens because I've only taken a total of 500mg once this time around. But if I feel like it's activating again, I'll obviously have to stop taking it.

We have run out of patience with our upstairs neighbors. They're really loud, obnoxious, and inconsiderate a/h's. In addition to the loud get togethers, we've had beer cans, potting soil, human hair, cigarette butts, and water raining down on our deck. The "lady" who lives upstairs has said many, many times to tell her if we have a problem, and when I have done so, all she does is get angry, and b- to my next door neighbor, who tells her she is the one in the wrong.

They put on quite a performance Thursday night. They're very lucky that Corey was asleep. Even with the window closed and the AC on, they were VERY loud, and there was a lot of banging going on until at least 11:30pm, which is around the time when I passed out on the couch. I decided not to go out to smoke cigarettes anymore after they got really rowdy because Corey was asleep and I didn't want to go out side by myself. I heard my next door neighbor open her door, I think hoping I would open mine to talk about it, but I didn't poke my head out because I wanted to stay out of it...
I have been carefully avoiding them because I'm not quite myself, and I don't know what would come out of my mouth right now if provoked. I didn't call the office either, but I should have. I think somebody else did tho cuz they had at least one person over last night, who is usually loud, but they had their window closed, and they were fairly quiet.
We are no longer going to put up with their s-, and since the direct approach clearly isn't working, we are going to take our complaints to the office now...
But now we're going to record the racket from inside and outside our apartment, so the office staff knows how bad their behavior is.

I'm getting my nails done this morning. It's been 3 weeks, and they still look great. I think I will start going every 3 weeks vs. 2 from now on.