Hi Tina,
I'm sorry to hear about your recent personal issues and how they've exacerbated your condition. It's a hell I know too well. I hope things improve with time.
But I'm happy to hear CBD is helping you. Topicals can be great. I use it for neuropathic itch and some burning, and it immediately improves things.
About price, CBD can be expensive, but it needn't be. You can buy CBD isolate powder for $20 a gram, or even as low as $15 if you buy in bulk, and you can make your own tinctures and topicals. This is what I do. I haven't yet gotten into making lotions, salves and such things, but I make my own isolate tincture. I buy from Fully Activated, which has some of the lowest prices I've seen, not to mention their isolate is clean of residual solvents and other contaminants. I hear Bluebird is good too, but more pricey. The Hemp Barn is another place. Fully Activated at least ships to many countries outside the states.
I hope this helps, and good luck!