my nephew added to my depression. I didn't hear from him all year. then he sent me a form letter wishing me a happy new year. then he sent me another personal letter asking if I was going to the Chabad. I wrote back and said I don't feel comfortable and and said money was tight and can only walk two blocks so only take cabs to doctors. just wrote another letter saying I am a spiritual Jew and not a ritual Jew and the rabbis who visited me really enjoyed talking to me and I them but I was embarrassed about my family.