Hi hales

Welcome to NeuroTalk .

Some thoughts which I hope might help you.

As far as your termination is concerned, is there a support group of women who have made the same choice that you can join? Being able to share thoughts and feelings with the group could help.

I am in remission from clinical depression. What has helped me is learning and applying Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and mindfulness methods from a clinical psychologist. Is this an option which is open to you?

One thing which can help with anxiety is deep-breathing exercises. For example, breathe in deeply, count to 10, breathe out deeply, count to 10, breathe in deeply,.... Doing this for 10 minutes or so is usually effective in dealing with an anxiety attack.

Releasing butterflies at the funeral was a lovely thing to do. I think that grieving always follows its own course and takes its own time. Whatever seems right for you is all that matters. Please ignore people who, however well-meaning, try to tell you what you "should" be thinking or feeling.

With care.