Spent in the oncologist appointment
So sick and tired of all the doctors
So many still ahead
Tests
Blood work
So sick and tired
My body rotting quicker than I’d like
And still practice preventive health care
Since the age 49 my life has changed forever
Having to retire from the love of work and grown ups
Not that my precious grandchild isn’t priority
As it is
My adult children more than less addicts
And my granddaughter lives in fear that her parents want to take her
A gifted child since born recognized in kindergarten
High honors since her start in school
I’m her everything
Her bff Titti left for a girl w
Failed spins surgery to
Neuropathy
Fibromyalgia
Breast removal cancer estrogen driven
Implants that are deflating
Raynaud secondary finally the vascular dr has the answers to what’s going on with my hands and feet
And finally atrial fibrillation
And awaiting to schedule for a ablation as nothing seems to make my heart go back to NSR. (Normal sinus rhythm)
3D&C vaginal bleed my period stopped at 50
MTHFR dna mutation positive for teens variants
ALL THIS SINC THE AGE 49

Never in a million years would I have imagined my children would be where they are in life and not do anything about it

There have been many times I thought of picking up a drink lately but that would never be a option
I worked to hard for my sobriety
And even though I know how that first three drinks would numb this body it will never happen
But for my children not to do what they must
They are all doing it THEIR WAY
We who live sober living knows what that means

So I have to now treat my children like a drug or a drink
Sad
It make me very sad