This morning I feel very good... almost like I never had an episode at all
So, all it took was adding just that 100mg of gabapentin to the Vraylar? WOW
In case I run into trouble again, I can always increase the dose by another 100mg.

Heather said that there were a lot of things lined up for Bella for the day yesterday, so 2pm would be the best time to swing by the hospital, so my brother Chris and I went out to lunch first. He was in no rush tho, and didn't pick me up until 1 lol. We went to the Outback and they screwed up my steak twice, so they took it off the bill. We had a huge brownie sundae, which was awesome, and that made up for it.

The truth came out: My cousin was on methadone during her pregnancy, BUT they said that her doctors knew that, and were monitoring her and adjusting her dose. So Bella is having some mild withdrawal symptoms. This is according to her boyfriend, Dan. I haven't looked anything up yet to verify everything he said tho. I don't know that I want to.
Bella is keeping her milk down better now. There's a remote possibility that she will go home today, but probably not. Maybe tomorrow. I think that's probably a good thing JIK, and because I think that Heather needs another session or two with the lactation nurses at the hospital.

Bella is absolutely beautiful!!! Usually I won't hold babies (unless I change my clothes, etc) because I smoke, and don't want to expose them to the chemicals, but her father smokes, both parents insisted that I hold her, and the shirt under my sweatshirt was smoke-free. I held her for a long time
When Chris got Bella in his arms, his face got all red, and he started to tear up, which is something that reminded me of my father. I took a TON of pictures. I look bad. I was wearing makeup, too. I wonder how bad I look without it

We planned on a quick visit, but things didn't work out that way.
We were there for about 2 1/2 hours. I don't think that Heather and Dan have had any friends come by, probably because they are trying to distance themselves from drug users now. They both needed to vent, so I spent some time alone with Heather, and Chris spent some time alone outside with Dan.

Dan is odd, but I don't think my aunt is giving him enough credit. He fusses over Bella and Heather constantly, and I can tell it's not for show. He needs to get a f'ing job tho.

It was a VERY nice day.

But I was out for about 5 hours, so I was spent by the time I got home. I went to bed early, and am very tired this morning, but it was worth it

My brother is going to take me to the appointment with the surgeon next Friday because I'd rather not go alone, and Corey needs to save his vacation days in case I do have surgery.