Today I feel just "normal." I've been in the clear for for several days now, too. I know I've already said this, but I really can't believe all it took was adding that extra 100mg of gabapentin to stop that vicious cycle of hypo/mania. Whatever... I'll take it!!!

My dispensary is finally carrying a CBD dominant strain of MJ again. It's the best strain/kind for my kind of pain and muscle spasms, so I went down to pick some up. I tried it when I got home, and it's very effective, but energizing (but not activating), so I'll only use it for afternoons and evenings when I'm having severe symptoms.
I wish Alaina had a good dispensary near her now

We need more water. Corey is home, so why in the hell should I have to beg strangers for help? I'm making him come with me to the grocery store today. I don't need to do food shopping. I just need the water, some toilet paper, and more ice cream. We should be in and out, so he shouldn't b- about it.

I feel like I will somehow become more involved with Heather, Dan, and Bella. And my brother has already said he wants to be more present in my life. Corey won't like all that because he hates my family, and thinks I should separate myself from them. And my sister immediately started sending Chris jealous texts as soon as she heard that he and I went out to lunch and go see the baby. I don't think she would dare pull that s- with me tho because we don't get along, and I don't see her unless I have to lol.