There is a lot wrong with me. I'm going into Boston because no one locally will do the surgery, and it's something you would want somebody very experienced to do anyway.

The appointment with the surgeon (a woman named Dr. Chen) is a consultation. I'm seeing her to find out 1) if I need surgery (I do) and 2) if she will do it.

My gastro has already told me that he would recommend removing my sigmoid colon because of the sigmoidocele (herniation). I have no idea how she would repair the other two problems: a problem with my rectum, and a thinning of the wall between my V and A.

I don't know whether or not she would agree to repair anything, everything, do it all at once... or agree to do it because there's NO F'ING WAY I'll agree to a stoma/colostomy.

I don't know how soon the surgery would be done if she agrees to do it, how long I would be in the hospital, etc...

So, I have a lot of worries, and a lot of questions. If I have the surgery done, it could improve my quality of life, so this is a very big deal.