Weinstein’s don’t know where that or how that got on
Another day
Up so early just thinking of everything
Hearing from Corissa and had words I would rather have not
But we did
I’ve been lied to and packed with it
I must not depend on her return as it will not happen in the near future
Her contacting me and in the context was just for self gratification
And that pains my soul
Having to let go and let Heavenly Father is what I must do
As difficult as it is I must
Letting go is oh so difficult
But I know it’s the right thing to do
Leaving it all in Heavenly Fathers hands
Trusting him in all he has in the future for me and my granddaughter
May I always remember to than him for all he provides us with
Given exactly what I need in my day
Sad and frightened I shouldn’t be
I’m only human and have motherly worries
This too I must leave behind
Never did I ever imagine my children would not see the help that I need
As I make it look so easy
It isn’t
And I will not beg like a dog for treats
Speaking of animals
I so mis my dog
So miss him
But life hasn’t gotten easier
In fact I have come to understand
I have gone through all I have just to give it away
I am a messenger for Heavenly Father
He did not bring me this far for it to end at my own hands
May I never forget that
It hurts
Is sad
But I must treat them all like a drink or drug
Maybe one day it will be understood
I pray my boy is doing well
Looking forward to the next chapter in our lives together
This will be the first year during holidays I will not spend with my children
And I will move on with Eva
But by the grace of Heavenly Father
I so don’t want to feel anything
Me