What kind of bad thoughts are you having, Bobby? Are you fixating on death again?

Are you sleeping at all at night?
I know you said you are not sleeping during the day... I don't know how you keep going... you must feel miserable, and that doesn't help depression

You sound deeply depressed
I know that your pdoc is just trying to ween you off of the Cymbalta right now... maybe after the next time you see him things will get better. I wish you could see him sooner

I wish I could help you feel better some how...
But all I can offer is love and (((HUGS)))