I'm fighting it. I cutted again this morning and I have no idea why I'm doing it. I'm just hurting inside and I can't make it stop. I don't want to go into the hospital again but I'm teetering. I'm getting very tired and my mind is shutting down.

I'm sitting here in tears from all the warmth and understanding. I'm going to print it out and take it outside with me. I just need to be near my mom. And I know deep down she's out there and wanted me to have that statue for a reason.

Thank you all so much for helping me through this. I don't have my mom or dad but I'm so thankful I have you guys. But when it gets dark that's the hardest part.