since Zeynep has come back into my life things are a lot nicer. Yesterday we talked a couple of times. She has had such an interesting life. we talk about current affairs and see eye to eye. she met bloomberg who I want to see as president. she said he is good with ladies. I forgot her phrase. Cecilia knew his girlfriend from central park and her dogs.
after a long talk with suri I am not afraid of death and that makes me feel a lot better. I haven't been depressed since that conversation. It had to do with suffering and the world to come.