I didn't have time to read yesterday morning... I'm sorry I missed so much, Bobby. I hate that

I'm glad that you have Zeynep back in your life. She seems to be so positive.
And I'm happy that your conversation with Suri helped you view death in a different light. You have been a good friend to her, and it sounds like she has been a good friend to you, too

Find out what Cecilia gave you! And ask your pdoc if he will prescribe it without telling him you've tried it before... just tell him your friend takes it, and it works for her or something.

I think last time you saw your pdoc he was mainly concerned about getting you off the Cymbalta? Maybe this time he can move your meds around so they work better? I hope so

I don't take antidepressants. but I take A LOT of meds... too many to list.
For me, being flat is a good thing, and means that my meds are working. I can't be high at all, and I understand that it's too much to ask for me to be "normal," even though I have periods when I may be approaching what "normal" is...
But I'm BPI. And bad.
Everyone is different, but I think it's hard to find a middle ground when you have to take a lot of psych meds.

Wishing for more sleep for you...