Three not just one but three doctors appointments
And anxious I am anxious
Words they sure can cut like a knife
My eldest had some choice words for me
Oh how she remembers things
Yet when I asked her what were the words spoken when I gifted her with a three piece beautiful necklace piece a gesture of her help when I was working nights
and she over see n my youngest daughter
How it mattered that she remembered all she remembers is don’t ever sell it
How sad was I
And I refuse to remind her
No I will not be at the table this Thanksgiving holiday
Why sit at a table where I’m not even liked
How quickly the past be forgotten
How hard I worked for my family
While making all the sacrifices I made
Not to mention not bringing anybody into my life and they all have either a husband or a partner of their own
Left to raise this precious child who is my granddaughter
How her truth is remembered
That’s fine I’ll won’t take it away from her
Sad I am
The words I spoke as I put the gift around her neck was this be a token of my gratitude for the help you gave watching Corissa as I went to work this work I did was midnight till the morning and when I came home I took over and began getting my childs breakfast ready and lunch for school
She only watched her as she slept
Forgetting meeting her now husband
He lived with us for years
Years where his mother stopped cooking for him
Oh how she forgot how it really was
Hurt is far beyond the words of pain I have in my heart
Not my truth but the fact of the matter
No I will not be at the table
Let me fade-away
Let the emptiness I am dealing with be a reminder I once lived in their life
All for what
To be alone in it all
The excuses made to explain it all away
Alone I am
Sad it is
We will be in each other’s company as I get my news
And it be the last time
Me