I finished the book and ordered three more by the same author and started another book by Julia quinn. a lot of times when I am reading I am not depressed. I don't understand but it has always been like this since I was little. I just have to find books I enjoy. I am still itchy and stingy and worried what my pdoc will say about going off the meds. something is causing these side effects.they are driving me crazy. my feet are bothering me too. I didn't sleep much last night. I did a little cleaning this morning. I don't think I will do anymore. I had sad thoughts about the way my family treated me for the holidays. they mostly spent them with my sister and her family and left me out.often times they were mean to me so I guess it was better. I spent so much time alone.sh^t