I don't remember if I ever mentioned it after all these years but I am paranoid. I have been that way since I have been little and it also has interfered with my life. I think part of it was growing up with my father's rage and drinking, the enemy within and projecting the fears without. When I was young my neighbor who was a few years older than I was tried to strangle me twice and all my mother said was don't play with harvey. I don't even think she told his mother. II had some other scary experiences but not as scary. when I got my dogs I got a bit better and wasn't as afraid of walking down side streets. yesterday the friendly visitor came with goodies and a turkey dinner. I could never have done that volunteer work because I would be too paranoid. also I turned down a guy for a date and he threatened to kill me. I believed him.
last night I crashed again. so many painful memories-I really enjoyed reading and tennis and later squash and paddleball