marci was delightful yesterday and very helpful. she helped me walk to the bank and held my arm. she told me a family secret which I thought was a breakthrough about her father. also it is almost impossible to get another aide and then when they gave me one they were lazy and awful.
I was severely depressed all night long. My youngest nephew wrote me with family news. I couldn;t control myself. I said I wished I were dead and was spending another thanksgiving alone as usual and I should get used to it by now. I wished him a happy thanksgiving. I forgot if I mentioned I told the Rabbi I wished I were dead