I hardly slept again last night. I had been the scapegoat in my family and I am so blasted tired and keeping all the family secrets. alex probably doesn't believe me. he wrote back before and said how wonderful my parents were. He didn't show any compassion for me.I went through hell. my doctor said my bipolar and stuff wouldn't have been so bad if my parents hadn't been so abusive. I just don't feel like sitting on it any more. thanksgiving really brought it out...all the hateful memories. they treated the kids so well and they treated me worse than sh#t