Bobby, when is your pdoc appointment?
I think you are so out of control because you are off meds right now. You need to get back on something ASAP so you can start getting some relief (((HUGS)))
If the appointment isn't soon, maybe you can call him so he can call in a script, or give you directions about taking something you already have on hand like Zoloft, if that is his plan.
I hate that you are having to relive you past trauma daily right now. You must be miserable
I agree with Bizi... try not to send another note to your nephew until you give hm more time to respond- unless you already have.
Sending you (((((BIG HUGS))))) today