thank you so much bizi. I turn to you. I haven't heard from either of them. My depression is terrible but I know that even if I got Pika it would still rear its ugly head. There is no solution. I just took a nap. The nightmare hasn't gone away. I am afraid to write to courtney again. He must think cecilia and I are nuts and wouldn't want pika to be with me. I just got two more emails from that adoptapet organization and there was no comparison and they didn't even look like abys. It added to the pain