I am sure it was stress. Robert will do it in his time. It takes a lot of time. I changed a lot of the passwords now but one needs the old password which I didn't seem to write down or remember. It is still a lot of stress.
Last night again and I was so very depressed. I have tears in my eyes. I am still obsessed with jury duty and I couldn't find a reason for living. Then I said I have my cats and I love them and take care of them. I have two friends who I am very supportive of and listen to their worries. One has breast cancer. I am supportive of Cecilia who is always worried that her cancer it coming back.I have a best friend Alice who pays my rent and just rejoined her choir because she said that she had become at times depressed and needed a sense of community and you guys who I always read.
My back is better from riding the bike which I plan now to do twice a day. Zeynep said it is also good for boosting good cholesterol.
I am scared about the new psychiatrist and rehashing a lot of painful s@#t.
I can't tell if the new antidepressant would be working better if I didn't have so much stress going on and Pudge's being sick but now fine. I think it is helping my appetite. I got on the scale and saw I lost a few more pounds and lower than I have been in a year. I am only eating one veggie burger a day.