Hi christoph.tamz and welcome to NeuroTalk.

I am confused. Why were you forced to retire and why is you insurance company denying medication?

Have you been on steroids recently, they can cause mood swings. Depression and mood swings can be situation or due to the disease it's self. Regardless of the cause medications and Psychotherapy can be very helpful.

It's not uncommon to go through the grieving process, much like when a loved one dies, when being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. We all have.