To start you have to try desensitize.....Go to the haircut place, dont get it cut?....Will that start your problems?...Take any act or job and take it in bites, see how you do......You need to start over, life is now different, what you did before, you may never be able to do again.....I know this as still after over 12 years, I still have many problems, and never put my self in a situation that would trigger any of my goofy problems.

Take baby steps, take care of yourself!....Only you know what bothers you, and yes sometimes its found out after you have done too much.

I wish the best for you and hope you can start to figure out the triggers in your life...