On another note I just wanted to mention that I started my menstrual cycle early yesterday. And I wondering how much of my depression severity had to do with PMS. I usually don't have any signs of PMS but the older I get I get them every once in awhile.

My pain got severe the day I talked about how pleasant my day was. It got severe in the evening after I done several things. Which were very minimal like watch washing my hair and making phone calls and doing some web searches. All the things that had needed to be done for weeks. The pain got to be about an 8. But I did not fall into the severe depression. Yesterday was a pretty rough day as well pain wise but I did not fall into the severe depression again. I don't know how much to contribute to the possibility of PMS or that that I just have a better attitude because of a possible logical physiological reason for my depression. Just wanted to throw that out there. And thank you to the all the people better connecting with this thread.