CRPS thank you so much for reading my posts and thinking of me. That feels really nice to know that there is somebody out there I am connecting with. I believe you and agree with you that I need to see a therapist. Especially one that deals with chronic pain. Unfortunately I live in an area with limited resources but even more so than that I cannot afford to see one nor do I have a way to get to and from one. This does discourage me and what is often why I write here. I know I don't get feedback from many people and that hurts a little. But the primary reason I write is to get me out of my own head. Also to vent out some of the frustrations and fear I feel. That does make my mental anguish better. I don't feel good after I write but I do feel more relaxed and less oppressed. I really really do wish I could find a therapist to help me. I might be able to find one that would work with me and take just my insurance without my copay. But unfortunately I could not get there. I can't drive I do not have a working car. But I love that you offered your opinion. Thank you for that.
I had a fairly decent day today. My pain was so so not good but not terrifying. And one of the few times my pain medicine worked significantly. So I was able to talk on the phone to my girls and they are doing great. My youngest had a track meet today and she placed first in the high jump second in the relay and so so in a couple of other events. Both my daughters have a horse event on Saturday. It will be up in the air whether I can go or not depending on my pain level and the health level of my friend who drives me. Who knows I might be able to go I just hold it up in the air and be grateful if I do get to go. Saw my first Wild live rattlesnake today my dearest neighbor and friend caught it literally on his front porch where he lets his little dog out everyday. 3 foot long and absolutely gorgeous. I love nature and biology and ecology and most especially animals particularly reptiles so this was fascinating to see. All together made for a pretty decent day for once. I'm extremely grateful for it. Thank you for listening and talk to you all later.