Thank you very much for thinking about me dear friends

I did it.... Still dont know how, because if I had to do it again, I would probably feel the same the days before.... I missed my mom but, in the good way... not in the anxious ultra sad way I thought I would...
My main concern was being alone, and, around people I thought were going to be so rude with me but, no, it was the opposite People were kinda friendly and help me a lot

Everything happened like, very quickly.... I still havent processed everything I guess....

Im feeling so down and depressed since yesterday... like, "and now what ? a concert.... yeah and now ?" I dont know... does that happen to you too ? Like, after days of feeling so happy or fine, you suddenly feel super down ? I have the hypothesis that my brain tries to come back to its basal level but it exaggerates and go lower that wanted !?

Anyway.... Im back on feeling unloved, alone and insecure