I've been falling asleep on the couch pretty much every night for the last couple of weeks. I keep the blinds closed, but Rocky lays in front of them, so there's always a big spot open. He keeps watch because of all of the cats in the neighborhood that come by.
Yesterday morning, I found 3 cigarette butts put out on the ledge of the maintenance door, which is deep in the corner of our patio, so someone was out there for quite a while doing something. I would have noticed had someone been out there during the day... was someone watching me sleep?!?
I'm so freaked out!!! I didn't find anymore cigarette butts this morning, but it absolutely poured out last night, so I doubt anyone would have been outside creeping around. I tried to get to bed last night, but fell asleep on the couch anyway. I have to stop doing that. I will definitely call the police if I find anymore cigarette butts out there because there's no good reason for them to be there. Someone's up to no good.

I felt terrible yesterday, and really shouldn't have been driving, but I had to get to my pdoc appointment. She told me basically what I already knew, that I'm having the psych problems I'm having because I'm under-medicated because of having to restart my usual 400mg dose of Lamictal at 50mg after being off of it for so long in the hospital (I'm at 150mg now). There's nothing that can be done about that, but to wait for the next month + until I get back up to my old dose, and hope I come back around. Some of my other issues are obviously due to stress and anxiety, and she said I should be using my Klonopin more when I can (ie/ when I won't be driving). I'm off, but I'm hanging in there. I see her in a month.

I made my nail appointment with Judy a week too early, so I texted her to ask her if she had anything next week, but all she could come up with was one opening at 2:45 one afternoon that I obviously couldn't take because it's too late in the day. So, I couldn't get an appointment until Tuesday the 18th. Unfortunately, right after this whole exchange, I chipped a nail lol.
Knowing that Judy doesn't have the time to fix it, I just cut it down... way down. I hope that the rest of my nails hold up until my appointment. With my luck, they will not, and I will have to go see someone else. I'll need a pedicure soon too, and don't know when she'll find the time... I'm kinda frustrated.

I realize I did not tell you this, but I had a biopsy of a lymph node in my groin done last month (I've had swollen lymph nodes in a lot of places for almost a year). Nothing malignant turned up for what they could test for, but it needs further investigation, and maybe needs to be taken out. I was told that they review cases before appointments are made, and I'd likely have a long wait, and I was hoping that that would be the case because I'm really not in the mood to deal with it right now. But I just got a call from my PCP's office letting me know that I have an appointment scheduled with hematology/oncology for next Friday (the 14th).

I'm REALLY not happy because I have a colposcopy the day before (on the 13th) because I had an abnormal Pap smear (I realize I didn't tell you that either). It turned up atypical glandular cells. I had been having abnormal bleeding, and went to my GYN. I had blood drawn and found out that I'm perimenopausal at age 38 (sorry I didn't tell you that either). I may have to take progesterone treatment to control my symptoms even though I'm "fixed." My pdoc said taking progesterone is okay.

So there has been a lot going on besides the GI stuff. I just didn't want to muddy the waters with everything else. Who could keep track? I'm such a f'ing mess.

At least I can poop now.