You have every right to be angry, Blue, but you can’t indulge those feelings forever, or they will wear on your spirit, and take over your personality

I agree with Donna in that you may be suffering from intermittent explosive disorder, and I agree with BF that you need help that your current pdoc is not providing you with. Meds cannot cure us, but they can treat our symptoms to make life more manageable, provided that they are the right meds, and we are getting good care (((HUGS)))

I’m so sorry that you do have so much to be angry and sad about. You are such a lovely person with so much to offer. I would love to see you happier. You deserve all good things in life.