you sound so healthy and strong with such a good heart that is getting you in trouble. all those people are so sick and toxic. When you are feeling lonely or upset use this forum and call some help lines! you don't need to suffer from them. You are a very bright and articulate woman. You will find better friends after this horrific experience. You wrote that the pastor even turned his back. That is so f@#king outrageous. I would like to slap him and I am not usually violent.It is a gift to have a generous nature but you have to chose wisely. I start thinking the only sane and kind people are bp. They know what it is like to suffer.
Fondly
bobby