thanks. I am back in the depression. I talked to Robert yesterday and I told him I bought the new cellphone with an additional year plus an addition 1200 minutes. I hope he helps me figure it out. I got a strange email from the seller saying they needed my signature and I didn't understand. I got totally stressed.
I don't know what to do. Whenever I do something new I get totally stressed and then start obsessing, The whole thing cost 141 dollars and I kept on telling myself I don't really need a cellphone except for emergencies and if I lost the 141 dollars it would be okay.My world is so tiny now. A lot of times it is so painful.
I got the new meals on wheels. No longer will I get the veggie burger six days a week and then throw it out. This will come every tuesday. They made a mistake and gave me more vegetarian meals which are quite good and I decided maybe it was better than meat meals because of my cholesterol so I won't ask to change.
I go to the new cardiologist at 4. I will show him my cholesterol numbers and say I don't want to take Praulent because more than half the reviews were negative. I will tell him I changed my diet and now have two kiwis a day.
He will think I am crazy but I am. I talked to Marci a lot yesterday. Her presence and wonderful attitude help my sanity twice a week when she comes.
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Real life, of course, is not quite so clear-cut. For example, a 2015 review of previous studies by two Brazilian researchers concluded that rumination is present in all bipolar phases and may reflect a hitch in the brain’s executive function (a set of processes relating to planning, organizing, and self-regulation)."