I am only taking klonopin and aplenzin, the antidepressant. I see the doctor on the fifth and will tell him about it.The spending and overeating has got to be stopped. I just bought another toy fr Danny.
Today I slept again for over five hours. I ate late last night on top of other things, I ate a lot of raisins. I just feel sick. I turned on the ac last night because I just didn't feel well.
My stomach really bothered me but it could have been the raisins, I had so many. I had so much gas. I only took the laxative he gave me this morning and I don't know if it worked or it was the raisins. I am so glad I didn't cancel the g.i. appointment for tomorrow.
Then I really screwed up. Oh first I went over to Cecilia who had been sick for four days to watch tennis and after a while my back hurt so I went home to lie down.
Then I sent an email to Robert about coming over for more toys on either sunday or saturday. He wrote back and asked if he could come over when Marci was here because danny likes her so much. I said okay but she will be here on Tuesday morning since she had an appointment in the afternoon. That triggered me. She only cleans for me because she cares about me and that I am bipolar. Now I was told that the apartment had to be neat if a therapist came here. Even though she comes for four hours I think she really only does work for 2 1/2 hours. I finally had to tell her to clear off the dining table. She doesn't clean off the cat hair on the chairs. I will see what happens when I tell her to. She usually eats my food. Last time she had soup and a chicken salad. She really never says thank you. This time I wonder how much time she will spend talking to Robert and playing with Danny.
I just eat my anger.
I have really been too generous with Marci and am paying for it.
I don't want to lose her and I do love her and she is special and I have had such bad luck at the agency she comes from.
Now my stomach feels better and I will try to read. I have so much anxiety when I try to clean. I do some though and almost always have clean sinks.
love
bobby
the temperature now is 67 but I don't want to turn off the air conditioning. I also started the process of switching my 401K to a regular Ira from Vanguard.