I finally haven't overeaten today . It has been a while. I am getting in touch with a lot of anger. I don't think I am going to take a friend out for her birthday. She said she was going to take me out for mine and she didn't. She has so much more money than I have. All along I have been giving her things and when she offers to pay I say no. Now I will probably give her some laxatives which cost me twenty dollars. I have given her shoes-nice ones- that are a little snug. If I take her out I will feel like a smuck since I treat her better than she treats me.I think I am going to wind up with no friends. Maybe it is better if I just read, listen to music and play with my kitty cats and not be triggered. This last depression was so painful. Today I have even been able to read.I think I will be able to finish the book tonite. I'm listening to Graceland. so wonderful. I wrote to another friend and just told her positive stuff without anything negative. I just saw that the prescription was delivered.
My apartment smells of rose which is very nice. With the music and kitty cats I don't feel alone. Maybe the anger has been triggering all the mania.