Thanks for the response. I’ve definitely had setbacks and such where I’ve felt genuinely awful. For this last incident I definitely felt quite a lot worse then usual after but of course it’s awful hard to tell what could potentially be due to anxiety and lack of sleep and sore neck and such.

I struggle with that also, not knowing how healthy the seeking out of reassurance is. I understand that it’s not the healthiest in helping my obsession but at the same time I mean I want to be safe and I want to build my knowledge on this topic and being able to identify what is damaging and what isn’t so that I can be able to better determine it myself in the future. Like so many things I used to worry about a lot before still happen to me every day but now I have the knowledge to know they are harmless and I don’t think about them anymore. It’s only when I have extreme incidents like a fall or hitting my head rather hard that I really panic a bit and seek out reassurance or information.

Regarding this last incident it’s just tough because it happened in a point in my life where I was doing so much better. Like I said, a couple days before it happened I was working an event all day and even went out at night and got home very late so that had been like a huge accomplishment for me. So to have something like this happen, a big setback/reinjury, it’s just really really crushing. Makes you want to give up, just lock yourself in your room forever and go numb. I also feel like since I live quite an active life these incidents that happen to me are much more extreme then a lot of the stuff many people on here worry about an so that kind of gives me even more anxiety.

Your right though, when I look back there are a lot of incidents I overcame which I didn’t think I’d be able to when they happened. Maybe I should take my advice more and not see these things as terrifying events but rather opportunities to grow stronger or desensitize myself. It’s just saddening when they happen I guess. How are you doing? What’s your advice?