Ever feel like it's just to hard to type out the words so that others can understand? Thats how I feel right now.

Wes is depressed, then he got sick at work. My hubby thinks he's faking and wants to fire him. They yelled at each other and some very mean things were said. All very unusual in my house.

I am on valum and have a migraine and am right smack in the middle of both of them biting at each other.

Except for now, my husband won't talk to me about it. Hopefully he is just calming down. But I have a little PTSD here and there and am freaking out about what I am up against. He doesn't under stand that either. Just as much as he doesn't understand Wes.

I just need to vent. I have no one to talk to about this. Every one I know is in the middle of this. I just need an impartial ear.

Everyone, including mom, thinks Wes needs a way to learn to cope and how to get through the bad days. But dad thinks he needs to get through all of it all the time with no more slack. I think he thinks I baby him too much.

I think I only step in when it's too much for both of them. I protect my husband as much as Wes. He doesn't see that I guess.

I just hope he doesn't ask me to choose sides. I won't and then no one will win. We will all just be miserable.

sigh.

I need another valum.