Yeah WL, I am pretty busy...but part of that is because hubby's working from home. I guess another part is my writing camp this month and then next month is busy too...lol yeah just craziness! But it's a lot more to do with my mentality. I also have a bit of an aversion to driving myself, so like getting to places is an issue as well...and well, even the jobs themselves, while they seem great in theory, I tend to seem to find something uncomfortable about them. Like, I actually started volunteer work at the local nursing home. I love the idea of bringing some joy into the lives of these folks, but I was so SO nervous about following all the hospital rules and documenting things correctly and concisely and managing the right amount of time with each person and just knowing what to say to them...I really just got inside my own head and frankly I quit before I even started really! I mean, I did the group meal service in the dining hall for a few weeks, but when it came to one on ones...although I did also get sick at the time too...yeah it was just complicated...and my terrible pms every month also complicates things. ugh! but onto better thoughts!

I forgot to mention yesterday that I was going to start Gabapentin in the night. Well, here's how it went.


Well, I tried the Gabapentin last night and while it still took me a minute to fall asleep initially (got in bed at 12:45am, but didn't fall asleep until after 1:15am), it did help me stay sleepy and relaxed throughout the night...although I did have earbuds in as well for the first half of the night, but I don't think that mattered as I slept well after...and now I'm up and awake since 10:30am and feeling, well, better! So, yea...oh and no side effects (i think. i hope)
Now just to see how it will work for my anxiety. I'll be slowly tapering off of the Clonazepam now too.